Some of you know, some of you don't that lately, more than ever, I have been under a great deal of stress, filled with anxiety and negative thinking. It is something I have fought daily not to do because I do believe in the power of positive thinking. I believe in the power of prayer. I believe that if you believe and envision something for yourself that it WILL happen.
But even though I am more of a optimist than a pessimist, the pressures and strains of lack of money and time has been getting to me. To the point where I was getting depressed and thinking very non-Bunny.
I don't want to spend my life stressing about money. I don't want to spend my days filled with dread, worry, and frustration. My husband is currently working two full time jobs, seven days a week. I didn't know that by becoming a stay at home mother I would be alone so much. I didn't know that I wouldn't have him by my side everyday to help me raise my children. It is what it is for now, but I am tired of feeling sad and angry about our situation. And honestly, I am beyond exhausted with feeling frustrated.
In the past two years I have had some health issues come up (which I believe is due to stress) and with that and the realization that I don't want to live my life always wanting, needing, and frustrated, I have decided I am ready for change. I want my life to be filled with more joy, more gratitude, more confidence, more prosperity, more opportunities, and more peace.
I always tell myself, "how are things going to get better"? I say that because I see the situation just going around us in circles. Well, my husband and I have gotten to the point that we don't want to live our lives this way. I don't want us to constantly battle all the negatives but rather celebrate all the positives.
How are we going to do that? We have been talking more about it and we put ourselves on the same page. Call it faith, the power of positive thinking, or whatever but we want our lives to change and we want too enjoy all the amazing things life has to offer and not sit around hoping for things to change. We are simply going to write it all down. Corny huh?
We each made a goal to write down what we want for ourselves. We are so accustomed to be thinking of others that it is not going to be easy to do but it is all about changing the way we think and feel. So I call it a "Vision Board". I saw it once on Oprah (my how I miss that show), and I always wanted to do one. I may just grab some of my children's construction paper but I am going to write down all the things I want for myself. Because I want to live my life fully and not live it always feeling half empty.
What will that board do for me? It will help me keep focused on the positive, keep me grateful for what I do have, and help me to keep envisioning what I want for myself. I have always believed that what you put out into the world you get back in return. Many religions believe in that-some call it Karma. But whatever you want to call it, I basically want to create new dreams and goals for myself and make them happen.
Sounds simple I know but just like praying, thinking and focusing on your goals needs to be ingrained into your life and your way of thinking and feeling. I normally wouldn't share something as private as this on my blog but the reason I am is because all those things you want for myself-I want for you also.
So, I challenge you to make a "Vision Board" or a goal list for yourself. I challenge you to change your life and make your life better than it is today because that is what I want for myself. I'm ready to change my life and make it more fulfilling not for others but for myself.
I didn't know that I was going to write this post today, I had another post in mind, but I will share that with you all later this week. I felt I needed to share this-I needed to do this for me.
Now what does this have to do with my musing and adventures of being a vintage pinup mama? For me it has everything to do with it. Some of my biggest goals has to do with vintage and with writing and who doesn't want to be a better mama? I know I always strive to be the best I can and embrace my imperfections all the while learning from my mistakes.
On that note, I will leave you with a promise that once I finish my "Vision Board" or perhaps booklet, that I will share some of it with you. My hope is to continue to inspire myself all the while inspiring you as well to have the best life you can have.
Lots of hugs-Bunny xox